Tai-kong suo-yo duh shing-chiouh doh sai-jin wuh duh pee-goo.* – Hoban “Wash” Washburne, Firefly episode “War Stories”
Let me just remind you: You are not in love.
You’re only feeling that way because 1) you’re horny and in desperate need of intimacy; and 2) he is technically the only person who showed any vague interest in you and your ego needs major boosting these days. Either those, or you’re period is coming and it’s all just hormones. Or all of the above.
Nevertheless, it is not tolerable to continue to think about it, because nothing good will come out of it. You are not in love.
You are not capable of that anymore.
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Yep. Am definitely a commitment-phobe. Cosmo says so.
I can’t even commit to getting the gorram credit card for myself.
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Obviously, I’ve been watching too much Firefly. I’ve even taught myself how to swear in Chinese. I even capture the series images while teaching myself Chinese swear words. Yep, finally found myself something to be addicted to again.
But as I am a commitment-phobe, I’m sure in a matter of months I’ll be back to my normal, albeit crazy, self. Or at least, to a more diluted version of this fangirl-dom. And though I am at the height of this addiction, and tired of being the only one sporadically bursting with the Jayne song, I don’t and can’t convert people to being Browncoats. Well, I have influenced some, but that is mainly due to the fact that they love me and they have no choice.
Seriously though, I find it hard to convert people. Or even market begorramed accessories, or a simple T-gorram-shirt. I am totally not made for advertising. Probably it comes from not giving myself fully into the thing, pledging your life on the success of the product. Commitment-phobe remember? I cannot swear my integrity on anything, because it’s either I don’t totally believe in it, or I’m too scared that my word is not good enough.
“Don’t be afraid, that’s what it says. But you are afraid. You’re afraid we’re going to run out of air. That we’ll die gasping. But we won’t.
We’ll freeze to death first..”
-River Tam, Firefly episode “Out of Gas”
*Everything in the universe is stuffed up my ass.
holy bejeeseess!!! i finally had the time to check up your site because you know our stupid server blocked wordpress, which is insane…
anyway… FIREFLY DVD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if you can finally be separated for it for a day or two, i would like to pirate it, if that’s ok, because your stories are killing me, i wanna watch it too!!!!!!
and because i would love to learn swear words in a different language.
because i like to swear. LOL
at first i thought your title was korean. River Tam, i mean, come on.
then i read it out loud. then i reread the last line of your entry. then it hit me. everything in the universe is shoved up my ass. haha!
@poont: gaaah! I didn’t realize Tam could be a Korean name!!! grrr.. arrgh. haha. Oh well. It’s Chinese. Mandarin, methinks. Which reminds me: need help on the pronunciation!
Can’t have swearin’ poorl pronounced.^^
@redd rock: I actually bought another box copy.^^ I’ll let you borrow the cd soon, in exchange for some help photoshopping. hehe. I can’t remember it anymore….teehee!
actually, your version is pretty well romanized, though not strictly pinyin. ;P left something for the circle. sorry, it’s not my words. wish it were though.
saw it. very beautiful.^^ hehe. HAMPI BERDEI EDZ!!!! let’s do lunch!
let’s do lunch at the AB FACULTY SHOW!!!!!!!! December 20 daw according to mam dors. and Paskuhan is Dec. 21. hihihihihi!!!!!!! ^.^
oooh. dec 21 is a Friday… huhu work! dec 20? pde ba tau maglunch ng mga 10? lol
graveyard ako nun e T_T… spent half my birthday working and the other half asleep. (T_T) leave tayo! hihihi
redd, di kita ma-reach sa blog mo… so im saying hi to you here! haha